my husband hanging a self-built bat house on the side of our deck, for temporary testing and observation
a daughter making raw carrot cupcakes, carrots never tasted so good
another daughter dropping a kiss on my cheek for no reason
teen brothers working in the kitchen, washing and cutting potatoes, dropping them into a large pot for boiling
all 6 of us around the table holding hands, praying Grandpa’s prayer “Thank you God. Amen.”
while at the table, *reading aloud about Enneagram number 1 (The Perfectionist), kids laughing, giving me knowing looks as I describe a One coming unglued over an inappropriately loaded dishwasher. I am not a Perfectionist, but haphazard dishwasher loading will make me sigh, or quietly curse, or grump.
After supper, I see . . .
a son pushing the lawnmower while another son weedeats
a daughter coming outside, asking “Are you having fun planting your trolls, Mama? Do you need any help?” I give her the shovel, she digs while I drop in small celosia — deep red, fuchsia, orange, yellow
air dimming, colors and shapes muting
“Look at the sky, Mama,” a peach brushstroke against fading baby blue
fireflies drift, bats dart, we stand under the bat house, looking up, hoping
“I’ve heard that when bats come home to roost . . .” Sid says, sounding like a wise man uttering prophecy, “a whole bunch of them swoop to the bat house at once, all of them trying to fit inside that small hole.” We laugh, imagining the sight and sound of bats pummeling the little wood house, like a Looney Tunes cartoon. We stand there a little longer, looking up, hoping
Later, heading toward bed, I see . . .
my 3 teenagers and 1 almost teen, sitting around the kitchen table, chatting, laughing, the girls painting old turtle shells found in the woods, doing nothing really but enjoying being together, each loving the company of the other
This writing is my turning around, changing the way I see the world, pulling my heart from the pit of dread and despair (just call me Eeyore), and focusing on the Good.
Inspired by Erin’s post Small Step No. 17: Say What You See at Design for Mankind
* The Road Back to You: An Enneagram Journey to Self-Discovery, Ian Cron and Suzanne Stabile