Thoughtfulness

I have cut Sid’s hair for almost 25 years now.

With clippers.  It isn’t like I have hair-cutting skills.  I just put on the guide and push the switch to “on.”  I won’t go into detail about the once or twice . . . . . .eh, possibly three times . . . . . that I put on the wrong size guide and shaved a long strip down the middle of his head way shorter than originally planned.  So using the clippers requires making sure one has the correct guide before making the first cut —- check the guide twice, cut once.

As my health spiraled, Sid began to help me by doing the first shave himself.  Though he is losing hair, it still grows thick in the spots where hair does grow, so it takes a bit longer than one would think.  Then I take the clippers in hand and spiff up the hairs he missed and clean up his neck.

The other night, I happened to notice a new technique — shaving directly into the dustpan.

I thought it ingenious and cute.

And good grief, that is a lot of hair in the dustpan.  I swear he still has more hair than me.

This is the point at which he realizes I am taking pictures of him on his hands and knees over a dustpan.  See the look on his face.  He doesn’t say a word to me, but I can interpret the look. —

First, it is surprise —- “What is she doing?  Why is she taking pictures of me cutting my hair?”

Second thought —- “Wait!  Will she put this on her blog?”

Third thought —- “I don’t know how I feel about that.”

Last thought — “I’ve lost this, man.  If it makes her happy taking pictures of me on the floor shaving my head, then I’m going to let her do it.”

Putting on his pants

Early Saturday morning, I lay in bed, groggy, trying to wake up and get my body to move in slow stretches under my mountain of blankets.  I have convinced myself that this is legitimate exercise.  It buys me an extra 15 . . .er . . 30 . .  . maybe 45 minutes of guilt-free bed time.  I’m doing my exercises, I say.

My husband is getting ready for the day.  I feel a small earthquake as he sits down on the bed.  He has been my morning earthquake for 24 years.  And did I mention that he is a morning person, so he likes to chat in the mornings?  Sometimes, he even philosophizes.

In the morning.

Chattiness, for a non-morning person like myself, is difficult enough.  But philosophy?  “No, no, no” non-morning people everywhere wail.

Blithely oblivious, Sid asks his philosophical question,

“You know that saying . . .’He puts on his pants like everyone else — one leg at a time’?”  

He is incorrigible.  I whimper under my blankets.

(dramatic pause)

“Well, I don’t put on my pants that way.”

One part of my brain scrambles to process this data, while the other part struggles to determine whether I have the vigor to engage in this conversation.  I never know where these dialogues will go.

“Well, how do you put on your pants?” I finally ask.

“I put both legs in at the same time,” he states in a manner that strongly suggests that is the only reasonable way to pull on pants.

Then the image comes to me, one I have seen many times but never thought much about before.

“You sit on the bed, lean back, balance, and pull up both legs at the same time?”  I ask, incredulity tinging my voice.

It just now strikes me that this may be odd, both his pants-putting-on habits and the topic of this conversation.

But now, I am wide awake, contemplating how my large husband puts his pants on in a way that now strikes me as childlike.  He probably views it as efficient. Why take time to put in one leg at a time when one can do both legs at the same time?

Either way, he has won.  He puts his pants on more efficiently, AND he succeeded in bringing me to full wakefulness —- which I strongly suspect was his goal all along.

Really !!??!??

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Not only can he not keep his greasy hands away from his food, but he must scratch his eyeball too?

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He KNOWS that he is seriously testing the limits of my self-control.

Isnt’ that what marriage does to us at times?  Though I suspect that my marital testing is rather singular.  I take no pride in that.

In fact, I feel very, very alone.  I mean, how many other women have to suffer sewage in food containers?

I am so, so alone.

I know him well enough to know this  —— Sid is smiling while he takes that bite.  He tries to hide it by not looking at me, but I saw the twinkle in his eyes.

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It’s like a train wreck.  I can’t look away.

Though I really, really want to.

And to forget I ever saw this.

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Yep, he is playing me —hands cradling the face of my beautiful child that I labored to bring into this world and have labored to raise.

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Don’t worry.  I will get him back, this Creator of my Angst.

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PS   For clarification . . . . .Sid washed his hands before he made a tortilla wrap and man-handled our child.  The grease on his hands is what was left after much scrubbing (he assures me).   There was no evidence of grease on my dear child’s skin.  I couldn’t verify the tortilla wrap since he ate it.  He was absolutely forbidden to touch me until he found a way to get completely cleaned up.  Still, I would have preferred that he eat with a fork and not touch our children.  Let there be no doubt —– the man was testing me.

The husband dialogue

Am I the only person who envisions her life story written on the pages of a novel?

Occassionally, I use pretense to motivate myself to do a job I don’t want to do or to inspire a better attitude.

Mostly, I see the black stroke of our words against the stark contrast of paper in my mind.

And I think, “I’ve never read dialogue like that in any book.”

This past week, I have taken note of Sid’s words, followed by a bit of context.

 

“You are the architect of my  *%$#*$#@  destruction.”

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . (He told me this after I talked him into staying up late to watch a movie and he realized just how late it was.)

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“I admire you dreadfully.”

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . (I don’t remember the context.  My brain hinged on the juxtaposition of admire and dreadfully, trying to decipher his intent.  I am still working on that one.  Sid tells me he was being all literary and referencing Dickens’ Great Expectations).

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“Oh, honey, you know that your desire is for me and I am to rule over you.”

. . . . . . . . . . . . . ..(I was very sad and tearful, and I *think* he was trying to cheer me up.  Pagans should reference Genesis for further clarity).

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“This is one of those times when you love me so much, you don’t realize how much you love me.”

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I feel inspiration for the kids’ free writes coming on.  I could assign them the task of writing down their dialogue occasionally.  Or maybe give them a bit of real dialogue with the challenge to frame a story around it.